Solo/Private

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Lady Duvaineth Taurhebor |
Lord Torthon Talven
A few months later
Túrion Dornea, near Lamedon, Gondor
It had been a hard day, with problem after problem to deal with. The spring had brought severe winds this week, along with some harsh rain. Many trees had fallen, roofs had lost chunks, and so on. It had been a severe storm. The villagers on their land had been making reports all week long about damages that needed repairing. And just when it seemed that the repairs were nearly over, another harsh wind storm swept through, causing even more damage than the first. That one had been last night. Today, Duvaineth had listened to each and every report, assuring the villagers that their homes, shops, and etc would be repaired as soon as possible.
Once the last meeting of the day had ended, Duvaineth had remained in Authion’s office for a long while to work out what all still needed to be done, sorting out the schedule for when repair teams could be sent to this or that portion of the land, and so on. And on top of all of that, the lumber workers had been expressing their own concerns about this or that, some of it relating to the aftermath of the storm. And then the foresters had mentioned concerns about some sort of bug that might pose a danger to one of the tree species, and Duvaineth knew nothing whatsoever about that sort of thing, nor how to fix it. Yet, she had to manage this entire estate now. She would have to learn all of these things. That burden had fallen onto her shoulders last autumn, when the search party brought back her husband’s broken body. And she would have to continue to bear this burden until her toddler son was grown, and old enough to take it up for himself. It seemed like a heavy burden. Today, it seemed heaviest than it had been yet.
Sighing, she rested her elbows on the desk and put her head in her hands. “It’s days like this when I miss you most,” She murmured into the air, as if he could hear her. She felt tears gathering in her eyes. “Why.. why did you have to leave me?” She squeezed her eyes shut, drawing a shaky breath. She wiped her eyes and raised her head at last, then jolted slightly in surprise to see Torthon standing in the doorway. She hadn’t heard him come up, and wondered how long he had been there. She frowned. “What are you doing here? I sent you to the norther section, to oversee the repairs there.” She reminded him.
Torthon bowed his head slightly. “It is done already, for the day.” He explained. “And too dark to begin any other projects, now.”
“Is it already dark?” Duvaineth blinked in surprise at realizing how late it had gotten. “I should check on the baby,” She realized, sighing wearily.
“May I walk with you?” Torthon asked.
Duvaineth glanced at him, frowning slightly. Walk with her to the nursery? Did he not realize that “checking on her baby" meant she would be feeding him? But then, she recalled that his baby was also there, so he probably wanted to see his son for a while. Ever since that tragic day, Torthon had remained in the guest cabin that Authion had let him use, having expressed his desire to stay and help around the estate as much as he was needed. Although Duvaineth told him that she could handle it on her own, and did not need him to stay around for her sake, she had eventually agreed that his baby, Toggornir, could move into the nursery with the other little ones. She considered that for a moment. “You may walk with me, but you will need to leave the room when I say.” She gave her consent, but with a condition.
“Of course.” He stepped aside and offered his arm, escorting her out of the office.
“What is it you wish to speak about?” Duvaineth inquired as they walked.
“As it happens, it is about my son.” Torthon answered.
“He is doing well.” Duvaineth informed him. “I have been caring for him as I do my own sons.”
“Yes, I know. And I am thankful for that.” Torthon answered with a little smile. “I truly appreciate all that you have done for him, my lady.” He told her. “In fact, this is.. the closest the poor infant has ever had, to a mother.” He said softly. “Poor boy.”
Duvaineth glanced at him, then looked ahead as they walked. “It is a hard thing for a child to grow up without one of their parents.” She agreed softly. That was something she had often lamented for her own boys, these past few months. That they would grow up without a father. She drew a slow breath. “But, they will grow up well enough, I’m sure.” She tried to convince herself of that, but still worried.
“There are some things which a boy learns from his mother, which a father has difficulty imparting to him.” Torthon mentioned, shrugging. “I fear my son will never have such an opportunity.”
Duvaineth considered this, and glanced at him questioningly. “Was that what you wished to talk about?” She wondered, trying to nudge him toward the point of this talk.
“Ah, no. Forgive me, I got sidetracked. Actually, I wondered if you could recommend a good governess, for I must soon take thought for that. If he cannot have a mother, at least I hope to have a governess for my boy,” he explained.
“I’m sorry, I do not know of any who are not already employed by others.” Duvaineth answered regretfully. They reached the doors to the nursery, and stepped inside together.

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Aearonor &
Glirdis
joined by lady Taurhebor and Lord Talven, in the nursery
“Mommy!” Aearonor happily abandoned his blocks and ran to greet his mother, who had been busy all day.
Duvaineth smiled as she stepped away from Torthon and bent down to catch her eldest in a hug. “Have you been a good boy today?”
He nodded, beaming happily as she picked him up.
Duvaineth held him close, smiling. “I missed you today.” She whispered, making him giggle as she tickled his tummy.
Torthon stood by with a small smile while Duvaineth greeted her child, and gave a nod of greeting to Glirdis, the lady employed by Duvaineth to care for the children when she was not there.
“My lady. Sir.” She curtsied to each before focusing on her employer. “Aearonor has been very busy with his blocks, today.” Glirdis reported, smiling. “He built a little castle with a tower, nearly ten blocks high, before they fell over,” She added, proud of the three-year old’s accomplishment. “With barely any help from me,” She added in a side whisper, before resuming her normal voice. “He has also been playing with clay, but I made sure that he was cleaned up immediately afterward,” She added, a little anxious to make sure this was alright.
“That’s fine.” Duvaineth nodded, without turning away from smiling at her little boy.
“And sir,” Glirdis turned to Torthon, next. “Your son is napping at the moment. He has been asleep for about ten minutes.”
“Thank you.” Torthon nodded, clasping his hands behind his back as he watched Duvaineth with her son.
“Let’s see how your baby brother is doing, shall we?” She smiled as she set Aearonor on the floor, and held his hand while they walked together over to the cradle.
“He seeping.” Aearonor informed her.
“I see that.” Duvaineth kneeled down and looked at little Anurion, smiling softly at the sleeping baby. He was so tiny, so sweet and peaceful, and unaware of any sorrow or trouble yet. She hoped he would never experience such grief and tragedy as she was suffering through, right now.
Meanwhile, Torthon went over to the crib where his own son was sleeping, and looked in on him to see how he was doing.
“Come, Mommy!” Aearonor bounced up and down, tugging on her hand to pull her over to show her what he'd made.
“Shh,” Duvaineth hushed him, worried he would wake the baby. She followed him over to the other corner of the room where he pointed proudly to what he had made. “Look!” He said eagerly.
Duvaineth smiled, admiring the little craft that Glirdis had helped him make, a
little disc of clay that Aearonor had pressed leaves and flowers into it. “Oh, how nice. You did a wonderful job on that,” She told him, smiling. Then she received a harsh jolt to her emotions.
“Made for Daddy.” Aearonor proclaimed proudly. He looked up at her with big blue eyes. “He come home soon?”
Duvaineth caught her breath, a mist rising suddenly up before her eyes as she struggled to keep a tight hold on herself. She stood very still for a moment, feeling as if all eyes were on her. Glirdis, Aearonor, Torthon…
She breathed out slowly, blinked a few times, and then led Aearonor over to the rocking chair. She sat down and pulled her little boy into her lap, wrapping her arms around him. “We have been through this, Aearonor.” She whispered with some difficulty. Her throat felt tight. “What did I say about that?”
Aearonor pouted. “But.. Aerno miss Daddy.”
Duvaineth smiled sadly and kissed his forehead. “So do I, sweetie.” She assured him, hugging him tight as she rocked them gently. “I’m sure he would have loved it,” She murmured, imagining with a sad smile, how Authion would have gone on about how great the little disc thing was. He probably would have put it in his desk as a paperweight or something.
“I.. see that my son is not the only one who will have a difficult childhood,” Torthon commented softly. “I apologize… I spoke so carelessly before, without thinking of the fact that your own sons are also without one of their parents.” He said, his tone sympathetic. “I cannot imagine how difficult that would be. For there are far more things that a father passes on to his son, that a mother cannot.”
Duvaineth swallowed down the lump that stuck in her throat, and continued rocking gently. Trying to pretend she had not heard Torthon, because she did not know how to respond to that.
“Aerno miss Mommy, too.” Aearonor declared, frowning as he looked at her sadly.
Duvaineth held back a sigh, brushing his hair back gently with one hand. “I’m sorry, sweetie. I just have a lot more to do, now.” She sighed, feeling bad for not spending as much time with the boy as she used to.
Holding back a sigh, she realized it was nearly his bedtime. “Have you had supper yet?” She asked him.
Aearonor nodded and told her all about the yummy meal he’d had with Glirdis, and how she had given him a cookie after, when he finished his plate.
“Good! Now, why don’t you run along and get ready for bed, and I’ll come tuck you in and read you a story, alright?” She smiled and kissed his forehead again, watching as he climbed out of her lap and went over to Glirdis, who waited for him by the door.
Once they had left the room, Duvaineth sat back in the rocking chair and let out a slow sigh. “I would thank you to not bring that up again, especially in the presence of my son.” She said, looking sharply at Torthon.
“My apologies.” He replied quietly. “It’s only that.. I am saddened for the boys. All three of them, really.” He cast a sympathetic glance toward both the crib and the cradle. He drew in a breath and sighed. “I know what you’re going through,” he added ruefully. “When my wife died…” He trailed off and looked away, rubbing at his eyes.
Duvaineth took several slow breaths while he was speaking, and remembered that he had lost his wife, just over a year ago. Duvaineth had never even had a chance to meet the woman, for they had never come to visit, and she had not been told about the wedding until after it was long over. In fact, not until the woman had died in childbirth. Apparently, they had eloped, so she imagined that he must have loved his wife a great deal, if they could not even wait for a formal wedding with all the proper formalities and guests. And she could see how much he loved his son. And he clearly worried about him not having a mother.
She swallowed, trying not to be too harsh in her annoyance. “I am sorry for your loss, as well.” She told him quietly. “You loved your wife very much, didn’t you?” She asked sympathetically. “How did you.. endure her loss?” She asked softly.
Torthon looked at her, taking a little pause. “Did.. my cousin ever tell you anything about Laebeth?” He wondered, tilting his head curiously.
“No,” Duvaineth shook her head. “Only that you had married a woman... A commoner, and that it was a short marriage, as she died giving birth to Toggornir.” She answered gently.
Torthon nodded, looking down. “Yes.” he sighed sadly. “It is certainly difficult. I just.. I took things one day at a time, you know. But it is all the more difficult for you.” He added sympathetically.
“How so?” She asked, frowning.
“For me, I only lost a wife. My son’s mother.” He answered. “But for
you…” He sighed. “You lost a husband, the father of your children, as well as the lord of your estate, and the head of your household. I suppose I can find a governess to teach my son what he needs to learn, as he grows up. It will be hard for him to have no mother, but at least I can still be there for him as much as I would have been, otherwise.” He looked at her. “But you, my lady… you are suddenly thrust into the role of mother, father, lord, and lady of this estate.” He paused. “It isn’t quite fair to them, really. Nor to the people of your land. How will you find a balance between all of these roles?” He asked, tilting his head. “It seems to me that it must be a very difficult thing, for anyone to accomplish.”
Duvaineth looked away, taking a slow breath in, then out. “I have thought of that, myself.” She admitted. “I am learning that there are many responsibilities to running this estate, which I never knew of. I never realized how much work it was, running this place. It leaves me hardly any time for other things, like playing with my child.” She admitted. “How in Arda did Authion ever find the time to play with the boy, and still go off galavanting with Avorndir?” She wondered, sighing.
Torthon remained quiet for a moment, as if at a loss for how to reply, or unsure whether she wanted a reply. “I suppose.. it was because he was not trying to do it
all by himself.” He answered at last. “He had you to help in smaller matters, my lady. Taking care of the boy, managing the household, and so forth. While you, without him, are having to do all of that, and
his job, as well.” He pointed out.
Duvaineth sighed, nodding. She frowned. “I do wish Avorndir had stayed.” She said quietly. “It would have been good to talk with him at times. He was Authion's closest friend. He knew my husband better than anyone. Perhaps.. he could have offered some advice, or insight, into how Authion did things, which might have been helpful.” She frowned. “Did he give any reason for why he left so abruptly?”
Torthon offered an apologetic smile as he shook his head. “I’m sorry. It seems that he mentioned something about.. how he couldn’t stand to remain. Perhaps.. he blames himself for the accident?”
“I would have liked to talk with him at least, before he went.” She frowned. “Do you think you could find him, and convince him to come back? I’d like to know exactly what happened out there... and since he was the only other one there...” She trailed off, sighing.
“If you would like,” Torthon answered hesitantly. “I can
try and locate him, I suppose. Though, I don't know if I could convince him to return. He seemed rather adamant about leaving. I suspect he did not wish to remain here. The memories...”
“I see." Duvaineth frowned, thinking about that, but nodded. "Please try and find him, then.” She nodded, hoping to learn the forester’s side of the story. As terrible as the incident had been, she
did want to know how it had actually happened, so she could know whether there was any blame to lay upon anyone. She thought for a moment, glancing over at Torthon as she realized that she had lingered here for a while now. “I must go and put my son to bed, now. Please, excuse me.” She rose from her seat.
“Duvaineth,” Torthon said, rising as well. “I hope you are not upset at me, for earlier. It’s just.. I care for you, and for your sons. I don’t want you to be overburdened with these things. And I don’t want your boys to grow up, missing out on the bond they could have had with their mother. I.. already feel sorrow for my own boy, for he will never be able to have that.” He bowed his head in sorrow. “Please, forgive me for speaking so boldly.”
Duvaineth stepped closer and rested a hand on his shoulder, sympathetically. “I am not upset.” She assured him. “It
is challenging, trying to manage all of this. I.. I appreciate your concern, Torthon.” She smiled sadly and withdrew her hand. “I told Authion, the day he left, that I did not want to be a widow, trying to raise our children by myself.. without a father.” She admitted. “That is still true, though I have been left with little choice in the matter.”
Torthon looked back at her, then took her hand and squeezed it. “There is a possible solution to both of our problems, you know.” He told her softly. “Think upon it?” He suggested.
Duvaineth blinked, gazing at him for a long moment, surprised at what she was hearing right now. Because… he couldn’t be serious, right?
“I realize, it’s only been a few months,” Torthon hastened to add. “And I know you probably don’t feel like you would ever want to remarry… and I would never dream of trying to replace him. But.. it
is an option. You would have a husband to help you in all of this. Your sons would have a father.. maybe not the one they ought to have, but..”
Duvaineth closed her eyes, forcing herself to take slow, steady breaths. Her throat had swollen up so that she couldn’t swallow without it aching. The want to burst into tears was so strong, she found it difficult to fight.
“I don’t want to pressure you,” Torthon went on, slowly. “I only thought that.. it would be best if we could discuss it. Because.. it would be very hard to raise two sons on your own even if you were not trying to manage an estate on top of that.” He pointed out. “I understand if you feel reluctant.. for I never imagined I would even consider remarrying after Laebeth.. but, I do care a lot for you, Duvaineth. And.. it would solve both of our problems, would it not?”
Duvaineth took several slow breaths while he was speaking. “I don’t think today is the best day for me to try and make any important decisions, Torthon.” She said quietly. “I am exhausted, and I have not yet had supper, and.. I don't want to think about anything for the rest of this day. We shall speak more about it another time.”
Torthon dipped his head. “Of course, my lady.” He responded. He paused, however. “I do want to tell you, however, that I really am impressed by how strong you’ve been throughout this tragic time.” He told her. “Very admirable.” He smiled slightly. “And thank you for caring for my son, as well, even in your grief.” He paused. “You would be a wonderful mother for him, if you should choose to be.”
Duvaineth looked at him for a moment, her mind whirling with this thought. Then she turned and left the room, still thoughtful as she went to Aearonor’s room to read him his bedtime story, hoping Torthon would retire to his cabin for the evening by the time she returned. Duvaineth was exhausted, mentally, physically, and emotionally, after months of dealing with her grief, trying to be a mother, and also trying to fill Authion’s shoes and keep this place running smoothly. All of that, plus trying to hold herself together and stay strong, and not let anyone see that she was struggling. She was feeling extra weary today, and as she kissed her son goodnight, all she wanted to do was go to bed and sleep. Instead, she went back to the nursery to take care of her other son... and Torthon's small son as well. Thankfully, she had the room to herself by then. She had a lot of thinking to do.
A solution to both of their problems. A marriage, between the two of them? Could she do that? Could she remarry? And so soon? She looked down at her baby, then at the other, slightly older baby. They both deserved to have a mother
and a father. Looking out the window again, she closed her eyes, thinking of all the people who had come to her this week, asking for help with this or that, and how difficult it was for her alone to handle it all. Having to schedules breaks in these meetings so that she could take care of the babies, and then hastening back to the next meeting…
Having a husband, even if it were not the one she wanted, would lighten some of that load, at least. Her boys could have a father to help them become men. He would surely make a good father to them. They were practically his nephews, after all, being the sons of his cousin. So surely, he would love them and care for them. She looked down at the babies, only about a year apart in age. If they grew up alongside one another, they might be very close as brothers, she thought with a tiny smile. The idea of that appealed to her, at least.

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Lady Duvaineth Taurhebor |
Lord Torthon Talven
A couple of days later
Duvaineth looked up from paperwork as a knock came at the door. Torthon had arrived, as she had requested. “Come in.” She sat up straighter, outwardly trying to act as if she were not the least bit tired. “Please, have a seat.” She bid him, motioning to one of the chairs.
“Is Toggornir alright?” He asked, with concern.
Duvaineth smiled. “He is fine. Glirdis says that he is taking to the mashed-up vegetables well, and he is quite healthy. I asked you here for another matter.” She explained, noting the way he relaxed somewhat once his concern for his son was alleviated.
“Oh? What might that be, my lady?” He asked.
Duvaineth folded her hands on the desk, thinking. “I want to make it very clear, first of all, that I loved my husband very much. Yet,” She paused. “it
was an arranged marriage. I did not know, when we married, whether we would love one another or not. We were fortunate to find love. It was not like you and your wife. We did not fall in love and then marry.” She looked at him, seated across from the desk. “I have been thinking, about what you said the other day.” She explained. “And also, thinking of what my father would say. That I must think of the good of the people, and the estate. The good of my children.” She stood up, clasping her hands behind her back as she paced to the window, thoughtfully gazing out across the forest that spread out below. “I don’t personally want to marry again. No man can ever replace my husband,” She said softly, then turned to him with a little sigh. “Yet, I am aware that my sons would surely grow up better, having a father to guide them. And yours would do well to have a mother.” She drew in a slow breath. “If my fate were still left up to my father, he would arrange a marriage for me, one that he would think was in the best interest of all involved, and I would have no control over it. Since I have been left in charge here in place of my husband, I must also think of doing what is best for all involved.” She paused. “If you were sincere in your suggestion, then I agree.”
Torthon stared at her for a long moment, as if stunned, then he rose and came forward, taking her hand and kissed it. “Duvaineth, of course I was sincere.” He smiled. “I am glad you are willing to think of the boys' best interests. And although this is unexpected, I will endeavor to make sure that you do not regret this decision, my lady.”
Duvaineth couldn’t quite bring herself to feeling glad, but she smiled weakly. “Before we go forward with this, however, I want to make it clear that until Aearonor comes of age, all things relating to the estate will remain in
my care.” She informed him, her tone all business. “You may help me with running things, of course,” She added, “But all final decisions pertaining to the estate.. will be
mine.”
Torthon blinked, but slowly gave a little nod and smiled. “Of course. I never would have expected it to be any other way.” He assured her. “Uh, if I may be so bold as to suggest it... perhaps it might be best to have the wedding soon?” He suggested.
“The end of this month, if that agrees with you.” Duvaineth declared, a little resigned. “It allows plenty of time to invite friends and other lords and ladies, yet not so much time as to invite unwanted gossip." Mainly, she didn’t want to give herself too much time to start backing out, now that she had made up her mind. She had made this choice for the good of her sons, and for the good of the estate of her late husband. She could not allow any of her personal feelings to interfere with her judgement. "Also, the pear trees will be in bloom,” She added quietly, thinking of how nice that would be for a wedding. “Does that suit you?” she asked her now-betrothed.
Torthon had paused in surprise to hear that she already had decided on a date. “I.. have no objection,” He answered, though with a note of surprise.
“Good.” She nodded with a sense of finality. “Then that’s settled. Aearonor will be in the wedding, of course, and for a flower girl...” In moments, she had gone through her entire wedding plan, as if she had already spent much time planning it out. In fact, she had begun thinking about a few things while she lay awake at night, and while sitting with the babies in the nursery, and in between other business.
"Whatever you wish, my lady." Torthon answered. Before long, he left the office with a list of things she had instructed him to have done, in preparation for their wedding.
Duvaineth, watching her new future husband go out of the office, let out a quiet sigh and hoped she was making the right choice for everyone involved. Herself, Torthon, the estate, his son, and especially for her own sons. Only time would tell, she supposed...